Silence is …. really boring.

No posting lately. I’ve had lots to write about but just…. haven’t managed to get it down I guess. My girlfriend and I broke up. It was mutual though, sure it sucked, but it was rather painless and everything. I’m not sure how I’m feeling about anything. I’m mostly in a haze. My medicine is confusing my feelings, so I’m going to change. If that doesn’t help, I’m going to just quit medicine all together and be a real person. Lots of people seem to talk about how medicine saved their life (I’m talking about mood disorders and the like, not physical illness) and it’s really changed them as a person, but I dont want that. I want to remain me, if that guy ends up living some outsider existence because he’s a bit weird, than so be it. On the other hand he might be perfectly fine and everyone will accept him, either way, I feel like I’m just being untrue to myself.
Also, I realized I manage to piss a lot of people off without meaning. Half the time I don’t even know. There’s no follow up to this line except that I’m an asshole, but I really wish I wasn’t. I’ll write a proper blog another time.

~ by Ace Sunshine on March 30, 2008.

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